Methadone and other Killer Drugs

[angel813]

I have the need to tell you all that I have lost another child. This time it was not methadone, it was a motorcycle crash and her boyfriend was drunk. I am barely functioning right now but I wanted to let anyone know that does not already know. I am profoundly sorry for anyone who has lost a child. If I already posted this please forgive me. I am about brain dead.

[Moonmagic]

Welcome Angel,
I can not even imagine your pain as you have been forced to live this nightmare twice.

For others who do not know Angel (Eliza) she lost her son Brandon Lee Hardesty on Feb 14,2005 from Methadone. Then she lost her daughter Devin-Rose on August 24, 2008 from a motorcycle accident. She has suffered and struggled to survive the loss of Brandon only to be stricken again and bury another child.

Angel, here we open our arms and hearts to you in anyway way we can. I know your days are overwhelming for you to even function. I personally have talked to you many times and wish I could do more to ease your pain. We have a wonderful group here who have become specialized in their area of comfort, education and support.

You are not alone and your pain is our pain too. I remember the day I received your email saying Devin-Rose had
died. It only contained a few words but that was enough for me to hear the desperation in your words. I am not sure how much you remember but we had several phone comversations prior to Devin's services and I feared you would not survive another loss. I know what happened after you lost Brandon and how your heart physically was affected. Not to say your emotional recovery brought great concern. I thank you for allowing me to come into your life and how you have shared your inner most fears and feelings.

In time I hope we can help you to heal or atleast find some comfort if that is possible. No parent should ever have to bury their child let alone two of them. You know I am always here for you and also are others who manage this forum. Please feel free to post something even if it is a thought, emotion, fear or concern...we are here to help.

Blessings my friend, sending a big hug with love,
Nancy

[Epiphany]

My dear Angel,
I am so sorry to learn of the tragic death of both of your children. I cannot imagine the pain of losing both of your children, as sometimes I feel overwhelmed myself after losing my son, Mark, 7 months ago. Please know that you are in all of our hearts, and prayers are being sent worldwide as we speak.
I almost lost my other son just last month and I honestly did not know if I would be able to physically walk into the hospital after getting the call, my knees felt like they were going to buckle out from under me.
God is taking care of both of your children my friend, and they are waiting at Heaven's Gate when it is time for you to take that walk hand in hand with both your children at your side, but, "until that day" - God has "other plans for you" - we may not understand what it is right now, but there is one there. My mission is the 4 year old grand daughter that I take care of - every morning that little face gets me out of bed to face another day, even when I feel that I can not possibly go on and the weight of the world is too heavy for me to carry.
I vision my son no longer in pain now and I know he has played a key role in the friends I have now made half way around the country through MAMA.org. The best friends I have ever had in my entire life - people who have walked in my shoes, understand your tears, and cry right along with you. They are here to help at anytime of the day or night. Please keep in touch with us on this forum as we are here for you. Please do not hesitate to contact any of us at anytime. I have been given the strength so many times to take on another day through the friends I have made here.
Again, I am so sorry for tragic loss you have been dealt and we are all with you in both spirit and prayer.
Sending hugs & prayers to your family,
Epiphany

[mjhaynes]

Welcome Angel. I am so very sorry to hear this news. I have been gone for a bit due to the holidays being so damn depressing but I talked with Nancy yesterday and she told me about you losing another child. Just know you are in all our thoughts and prayers. If there is anything we can do, please don't hesitate to ask. Love, Mary

[MIMI]

HEY ELIZA, I'M SO DEEPLY SORRY FOR YOUR TREMENDOUS LOSS , BRANDON & DEVIN. I HAD MAILED OR EMAILED YOU AFTER YOU LOST DEVIN, NANCY HAD TOLD ME ABOUT YOU & YOUR CHILDREN. I LOST MY DAUGHTER WENDY, 33 YEARS OLD, ON APRIL 5, 2006, FROM METHADONE & A NEGLIGENT DOCTOR. I CAN'T EVEN START TO COMPREHEND WHAT YOU ARE LIVING WITH DAILY, THE PAIN HAS TO BE OVERWHELMING. THANK YOU ELIZA, FOR SHARING YOUR HEARTACHE WITH US, I'VE BEEN LIFTING YOU UP IN PRAYER. I'VE LOST A LOT OF LOVED ONES OVER THE YEARS BUT THE LOSS OF MY HUSBAND & DAIGHTER WERE BY FAR THE THE MOST DEVASTATING. I HOPE YOU COME BACK TO SHARE ANYTHING YOU'D WANT TO, YOU ARE WELCOMED WITH OPEN LOVING ARMS & PRAYERS. WE WILL HELP YOU ANYWAY WE POSSIBLY CAN, ELIZA, I PROMISE. IF YOU NEED TO TALK ON THE PHONE I WILL BE RIGHT HERE 24/7 ANY TIME OF THE DAY OR NIGHT FOR YOU, I'LL SEND YOU MY PRIVATE INFORMATION. PLEASE, DON'T HESITATE ELIZA, LET US HELP YOU ON THIS JOURNEY, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. MAY GOD POUR OUT HIS ABUNDANT BLESSINGS UPON YOU. LOVE, BREN

[angel813]

Hi all, I just wanted to pop in and say that I am doing a little better. Ir is very hard to get through these deaths in this hard economy. The financial loss compounds the other losses. We are about to get evicted as my husband and I have no work and were self-employed so no unemployment benefits. I want you all to know how much your support has meant to me. If you do not hear from me it will be because I am homeless and no PC. I love you all. Eliza ( Angel) Hendrickson

[Moonmagic]

Hi Angel,
It is always nice to hear from you but am so sorry it is with a sad message. I wish there was a miracle for so many of us during the hardest times this country has seen in decades. Sadly, it is going to get a lot worse before it will get better.

I am in the same boat as you, other half has been out of work for over a year with no unemployment as building a house is at a stand still down here. We have a few other members who have already lost their homes as well as their jobs. We are living to see a tragic time for many people and I fear just how far this will go.

I have reached a point to where only my faith keeps me strong and pray, pray that there is something that will come to those who are being hit so hard. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Michigan is #1 in loss of jobs, SC is #4 now in the country. This truly is getting scarier by the day.

Love and hugs, Nancy

[MIMI]

Hey Eliza, Thank you for letting us hear from you but so deeply sorry again for the circumstances. It is heartbreaking to read what all you and your husband are going through. The holidays are approaching and that's hard enough on you alone, without Brandon and Devin Rose. My faith is what comforts me in a Loving and Merciful Heavenly Father. We are not promised not to have to suffer ...just the opposite. Jesus was sent here on earth for us by His Father and suffered more than any of us could ever imagine. But, because Jesus was willing we are promised to be comforted , too.It is not God's Will, just like it's not His Will for anyone to perish but all come to everlasting life.He does promise to work all things together for good that love Him. Your prayers are heard Eliza . When you can't pray others all across this world pray for you. As Mary would say " don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle." I've been knocked down by the sting of death too many times and had my fair share of struggles I do feel, honestly. Eliza, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Bren